Bricks

What would've happened if I wouldn't have seen you? 

if I didn't swallow the butterflies?

if I didn't say that cheesy pick up line that you thought was cute?

if we never had a first date?

if we never held hands?

if our lips never touched?

if we never fell in love?

Forget the "what if's" though cuz i  DID see you.

i DID swallow those butterflies.

i DID say that cheesy pick up line.

we DID have a first date.

we DID hold hands.

we DID kiss.

and we DID fall in love.

But one day I came home and you were gone.

and you took my heart with you.

but you left a box labeled "bricks"

and now they're tied to my feet

sinking me deeper and deeper.

-Lloyd.

in my dreams, this is what i see

The fresh smell of pine and life permeate the air.

Drops of dew cling to blades of grass like a child clings to their mother.

Warm rays of light seep through the trees. Like water slipping through a crack in the wall.

Wildflowers unfold and bloom.

The river folds and flows like a flag in the wind. Not too slow. Not too fast. But just right.

The birds whistle and sing, welcoming the world to a new day.

This is my paradise.

-Lloyd

I'm crying. (on the inside)

I met love once. 

She crept up from behind and knocked me out. with her eyes.

She tortured me. with her smile.

she hurt me. with her lips.

She held my heart. with her voice.

I can't take it! Love.

fingers-tingling. palms-sweating.

I was scared. but i liked it.

dangerous.

beautiful.

Don't stop. Love.

then she was gone.

she left me.

breathless.

speechless.

Don't go. Love.

legs-shaking. lips-quivering.

she took my life.

my mind.

my heart.

You broke me. Love.

come back!

i want you.

i need you!

i love you.

Where are you, Love?

Ya, I met love once.

And i don't know if I'll ever see her again.

Lloyd Dobler.