you decide

how to be a failure

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quit when things start getting too hard.

take so many things for granted.

do stupid stuff just to piss people off.

put off goals just to be lazy

break promises.

say things you don't mean.

spit in the faces of those you love.

run off all your friends.

then learn from your mistakes.

and restart everything you quit.

and realize how much you're blessed with.

and try to make others happy.

and achieve the goals you set.

and keep the promises you make.

and watch what you say.

and give your heart to those you love.

and  work to regain your true friends.

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now tell me.

is this how to be a failure?

or.

is this how to be a success?

you decide.

-Lloyd.

i'd like to drink to world peace

so i see a cute girl at school

and we make eye contact

then she smiles at me

so i go talk to her

and say something totally stupid

then i'm like

and that's why most of my weekends look like this.

-Lloyd.

faith.

"challenges help restore power back to the people who rely on God"

-Lloyd

frost

we'll lay in the snow

and watch it fall to the ground.

we'll catch the flakes on our tongues

and let it tickle our noses.

we'll smile like nothing is wrong

and fall asleep in the silence.

we'll let the cold freeze our hearts

and let them melt away in the morning sun.

-Lloyd

um...

if my life was a facebook relationship status it would be the one that says "it's complicated".

-Lloyd

make a wish

 

i wish i could pull my heart out of my chest and show you what you've done to it.

 

i wish i could tell you how i feel.

 

i wish you would forgive me.

 

i wish you would come back.

 

i wish you could know all the hours i spend thinking about you.

 

i wish i could see you one more time.

 

i wish you'd call me and say that you need me.

 

i wish i could hold you and keep you safe.

 

i wish i could take those last two words you said out of my mind.

 

i wish i would've tried harder to keep you from leaving.

 

i wish i could look into your eyes one more time.

 

i wish i could feel your lips against mine for just one more second.

 

i wish i could tell you i love you one more time.

 

i wish you could see this.

 

i wish i could put a gun to my head and make this all go away.

 

i wish i could get you off my mind.

 

but i can't.

 

 

-Lloyd.

tears

I feel like my heart and my mind should have exploded by now.

the thoughts.

the emotions.

they just keep coming and building and I don't know what to do with them.

when I was young I used to cry and let all these feelings go.

but as I've grown older I've been told that this isn't acceptable behavior for guys.

so I trained myself to put my thoughts in a bottle, seal it with a cork, and throw it in the ocean.

but in quiet moments.

when I'm alone.

I shed a tear or two.

they burn as they roll down my cheeks.

and sting my lips with their saltiness.

-Lloyd.